#343 Me Vs Still Here

Ahahaha...macam pernah terbaca aje kan translation lirik lagu kat atas nih. *wink... Bila masa aku reti nak jiwang-jiwang neh. Dulu reti la. Nih dah season nih bajet-bajet arrr emosi tuh. Hahaha...

Hmmm...Dah almost 2 months ek aku tak blogging. Aku cakap kat Mek, aku dah patah jari nak blogging. Mau dah lemau jari jemari aku nih nak mengarang seperti suatu ketika dulu. It took me a while to think on what to do with this lovely blog. Nak buat apa yek? This time around I really feel blogging is not fun anymore. Photo shooting pun dah lama tak buat. Really a meltdown moments for me. I have lots of reasons why I left blogging for a while. Let's go slowly. I'm a reborn newbie here. Hehe.

For those yang setia menanti, I thank you a lot. Sangat terharu bila some people keep supporting me to continue this blog. I noticed the counter kept ticking. Aneh kan, makin ramai yang berkunjung kat sini, makin numb aku rasa. Truth is I don't mind sharing stories here. It's just that sometimes I feel like I'm strictly bounded to some rules that holds me from venting everything out of my mind.

During my hiatus time, I think a lot. I am a stressful housewife. I don't have real good friends who I can talk to whenever I'm in miseries. I don't go out often. I need a space for my own self to speak what my heart cries. I can't find any except here. People do think that it's a super easy thing by being a housewife. Only the real housewife knows the truth. If saying that we have a free working schedule then yes, it's a bonus. But not many knows about the dark side of this so-called-women's-dream. It's tough, everyone. For this Siti, I thank you for lending me your precious time and good 'ears'. I truly envy this supermom, a friend of mine. God bless you Siti.

...Yes, I'm still preoccupied with those hallyu thing. But that's not the reason I dare abandone this blog. It's a strategy to kill my lonely and boring time. If I don't blog, then I'll be left doing nothing but hearing the clock ticking. I'm sad. I have many friends but not many are in the same line as mine, having the same interest like I do. Agaknya Tuhan tak pertemukan lagi orang-orang yang sama kepala ngan aku. Still hoping for the time to arrive.